Selasa, 24 Desember 2013

Flying in Love not Falling in Love

(Cepet aja bacanya. Gausah serius gitu deh)

Apa yang lebih asik dari jatuh cinta?






Beneran deh. Asik kan?
Gaya. Umur udah 19 vin. Eh, tapi jatuh cinta nggak mesti ke manusia kan ya? Beneran. Dari pada bilang 'suka' sama sesuatu, saya lebih suka bilang 'jatuh cinta'. Seringnya jatuh cinta sama tempat. Kayak di post saya jaman kemarin, saya jatuh cinta sama SDN Nglahar. Langitnya, baunya, warna seragamnya, kepolosan anak-anaknya. Duh :''
Kenapa lebih pilih kata 'jatuh cinta' dibanding kata 'suka'?
Hmm, nggak tau ya. I've never been in a love relationship (except with family) before. Tapi katanya kalau cinta itu paket lengkap. Kalau suka itu fisik. Sayang itu mm.. katanya mainannya hati. Once again, saya kurang ngerti. Soalnya rasa cinta yang sering diomongin orang itu paling besar saya rasain itu dari keluarga saya. Orang tua, kakak, adik. Makanya kalo deket sama si A atau B atau C, saya posisikan mereka sebagai kakak, mas, abang, you named it karena saya ngerasa cinta yang beneran itu kayak gitu. Bukan berarti brotherzone, tapi sampe sekarang saya asing sama jatuh cinta yang menye menye.

Saya juga sering jatuh cinta sama pemandangan visual. Apa ya. Saya  nggak tau ini nyambung atau nggak, tapi karena kuliah dijurusan arsitektur, perasaan meruang jadi jauh lebih peka. Jatuh cinta yang full package, tempat, suasana, kualitas ruang (bau, warna, udara, dsb), daaaaaaan keadaan saya disitu sama siapa, ngapain, dan ngomongin apa. Kadang kalau lagi jatuh cinta itu saya suka kayak teriak teriak "Waaaaa!! Waaaaa!!". Itu ekspresi jatuh cinta saya. Kadang (oke, seringnya) plus senyum senyum bahagia sendiri. Banyak yang heran. Tapi biarin haha.

Terus, kalo udah jatuh cinta ngapain? 
Kalo saya, (lagi-lagi karena kuliah di jurusan asik sekali, arsitektur) saya gambar aja. Gambar yang semena mena. Karena saya gasuka gambar serius. Ada outputnya biar saya nggak lupa kalo pernah jatuh cinta hiahaha :v Sering juga ditulis. Ya kayak gini. 

Berarti sekarang saya lagi jatuh cinta?
Hmm hmm iya kayaknya. Tapi saya juga nggak tau lagi jatuh cinta sama apa atau siapa. Err, ada yang merasa bikin saya jatuh cinta? Oke, mungkin sama suasana. Hujan terus, jadi dingin, jadi asik. Natal lagi. Mau dijelasin apa lagi tentang natal? Ambiencenya selalu menghanyutkan sekaliiii~ Bikin bahagia :D


Lagi-lagi, akhirnya saya ngomongin cinta di sini. Tapi akhirnya saya belajar, cinta itu buat dinikmati bukan buat dipikirin sampai beneran jatuh. Alam menyediakan cinta. Pohon pinus berjejer, hijaunya aja bikin jatuh cinta ya kan? Uuuuuuuuh~ <3 <3














Selamat natal manusia-manusia penuh cinta!

See ya!

Rabu, 18 Desember 2013

The Good and The Sad

Long time no post any posting without photos? These. Fresh from my grandad's house (which has been being my house for 1,5 years) wo yea.

a pot?

Zoom in. It must be broken pieces from abang-abang's bowl! aaaak lucuk lucuk :3

 This. A cock of my aunt. Any idea for a name? Kok ganteng ya.




a hanging decoration is hanging beautifully at the door. Remind me to take picture of the door. also beautiful :3

Aaaaaaaaand....... Have I ever told you about my toy cam? Buzz? Who give birth many lovely picture? Here we go! This is Buzz the robotic toy cam.
 
Did you guys recognize something? Something behind Buzz?



New friend of mine! :3 An analog camera owned by Reinard, my (handsome *surely, he must not see this adjective*) college friends. He lent me his because my excitement about camera :3 So, my holiday will be accompanied by this. Yuhuuuuu! Let's go get your holiday!!!!!!


 gagah ya? :'')

Please wait for the photos. Holiday photos. The smell of holiday uuuuuuuuuhhh :'''')))







And the bad news today.....

Kura-kuranya matiiiiiiiiii :'( :'( :'( :'(



Hiks. A turtle in my granny's home has died. Hiks. :( (mewek). Found motionless, floating. Kayaknya mati gara" nggak digosok cangkangnya hiks :'( And for the last tribute, I rub its shells to make it clean from mildew. Padahal baru mau beli kura kura :'''''''''(

Jadi, there was a couple of turtle in the house. One dead, the other one feels lonely. *kayak vina. sigh*. Only one left now.


 The dead :(

The one who still alive :')


Selamat jalan, semoga bahagia.
Good bye, be happy all the way.






See ya!



Jumat, 13 Desember 2013

distraction and illustration

Gloomy rain. There's (should be) a cup of hot chocolate, in a terrace talking about silly thingy, and the most important............no social media distraction.
Enak ya. The smell of the wet soil. Rain drops on the leaves. A wood bench for two.
Oh, I think I'll make an illustration for that!



gambar semena mena















This should be happened if I reduce my prestige. A week ago. Just the drawing left.
apa vin

See ya

Selasa, 03 Desember 2013

Questions

Beli sneakers atau jam dulu hayo?
Sneakersnya hilang kemana?
Tunggu apa lagi?
Kalo yang ini tiba-tiba hilang gimana?
Kapan pulang Tangerang?
Kapan mau scan rol rol film mu itu, vin?
Starsmu vin, kapan mau dikerjain, vin?
STA kapan mulai diringkas, vin?
ACAD nya Mangunan, vin?
Katanya mau sepedaan lagi, vin?
Ayo nggambar lagi, vin!
Vin?
Vin?
Vin?
Halo, Vin?









See ya?

Senin, 18 November 2013

Kamar

(this gonna be a long post)



Hujan. Tadi malam si Vina begadang nugas. Kesiangan. Ditinggal sama Mami (an aunt of mine) ke kampus :( untungnya sopirnya baik hati mau ngaterin ke kampus. Seperempat jalan, sms masuk dari Anggun. Kuliahnya kosong :(


Terus sekarang Vina bingung mau ngapain. Terus inget kalo punya geekgogreen. Geek Go Green. Ya blog biasa aja sih. Biasa kerjaannya curhat. Kalo bisa ya jangan yang menye (walaupun beberapakali me-menye-kan diri di sini :( )

Then I found that Geek Go Green is a chamber. A cave. A crib. Of mine. Which people can sneak in.

Ya dibayangin aja gini. Kamar. Semua (should be) have a room. Privacy. Okelah, kita sebut aja ini kayak kotak rahasia. Kotak harta karun. Kayak macemnya Vina jaman kecil. (kamu juga dulu pernah punya kan?) Bukan bentuk fisik kotak. Tapi ini *tunjuk jidat Vina yang lebar*.

Oke, daripada disebut kepala, otak, atau bahkan jidat, kita ganti namanya aja jadi imajinasi. Dan selalu ada perasaan biar orang lain tau imajinasinya. Tapi jangan semua. Buat Vina, ini medianya.

Waktu kecil imajinasi bebas berkeliaran. Wut! Wut! Wut! Dulu anehnya (karena ngebayanginnya pas umur segini aja makanya dibilang aneh, dulu sih awesome! haha), Vina bisa bikin cerita sendiri. Semacam bikin drama. Sendirian. Di rumah. Tapi seolah olah ada banyak orang. Haha keren ya ;) kalo sekarang mau kayak gitu, udah kalah sama malu duluan haha


The bigger I grow, my imagination slowly fades away. Tapi tetep, ada banyak bayangan masa kecil ang nggak bisa lepas. Badannya si Vina aja gede, 166 cm. Tapi kadang masih merasa a kid trapped in 19 body (I still 19 though :p ). (Salah satu) Efeknya, ya gitu, kelakuan si Vina masih kayak anak kecil. Paling berasa itu tentang kecerobohan. Ini kebangetan.Si Vina juga bingung gimana cara ngatasinnya. Barang jatoh, kedudukan, keteken. Pun ampun Vin.... :'(


Terus, muncul lagi yang nggak pernah kepikiran sebelumnya. Si Vina. Valentina Kris Utami. Punya dunianya sendiri. Pernah nulis tentang dunia sendiri (presepsi tentang 'dunia sendiri' dari pemikiran Vina). Nih, tapi kalo males gausah dibaca juga gapapa.


Jadi ya, akhir-akhir ini si Vina selalu dibilangin tentang Vina dan dunianya. Vina pikir 'dunia sendiri' itu yaaa karena suka tau-tau keluar, kabur dari rutinitas dan ikut kegiatan atau acara lain. Yang bahkan orang-orangnya yang terlibat pun jauh berbeda sama keseharian.


Tapi tapi tapi, ternyata lebih dari itu. Dunia yang dimaksud itu bukan cuma dunia yang tercipta dari adanya kegiatan yang Vina ikutin. Dunia yang dimaksud itu imajinasi yang muncul di kepala Vina secara semena-mena dan gatau waktu. Imajinasi apa? Misalnya gini. lagi ngomongin tentang sepeda, tau-tau kebayang mimpi-mimpi si Vina tentang sepeda dan segala gambaran Vina dan sepeda yang pernah ada. Bayangan kayak gitu tau-tau muncul, seolah-olah ada film yang muter di kepala. Tapi yang liat ya cuma si Vina doang. Efeknya, si Vina malah senyum-senyum sendiri -____________- malah out of conversation -___-


Terima kasih buat Mas Amang yang berkali-kali bilang "Ha kamu sibuk sama duniamu sendiri kok". Sekarang si Vina sadar. Jadi.................ya emang dari dulu nggak sadar. hahaha



Sedih? Kadang. Nggak semua orang ngerti ke-anak kecil-an si Vina. Sialnya lagi, di umur segini, men. Lingkungan menuntut buat bersikap lebih dewasa. Pft. Tapi ya ada benernya. Masa iya mau gitu terus, Vin? I need to learn to live happily with maturity.
Asik? Ya asik lah! Ini tuh kayak bagian masa kecil yang masih nempel di pikiran. Karena imajinasi mainannya pikiran. Bukan perasaan.

Oke. Menulis tentang perasaan, buat si Vina itu sulit hukumnya. Karena bakal cenderung menye. Uye.

Sering muncul perasaan. I need somebody to share my imagination with. My weirdness. My cribs. My cave. My chamber. (Ini menjelang menye). More than that, si Vina juga mau mencoba keluar dari cribnya sendiri. Biar nggak kayak katak dalam tempurung. (bener kan ya peribahasanya?) Mau masuk ke kamarnya orang lain (ya kalo diijinkan. ini juga milih milih. *toyor kepala Vina*)


Imagine it is a looooong way with a door in the end. Sering kali orang-orang yang (mungkin) tepat sudah mendekat ke pintu 'kamar', tapi malah mundur ke belakang. Kebetulan? I don't think so. hahaha They decide, I nggerus :'(

Kalo sekarang, ada yang mulai dekat ke pintu, but I haven't see the decision. Open the door or turn back home (Tukan tukan tukaaaaan :'( )






Tadi malem ditelpon ayah. Ditanya, "Gimana? Logistik aman?" dan jawabannya, automatically, absolutely, "Nggaaaaaaaak :'((((" hahaha






See ya!

Selasa, 05 November 2013


I remember how we got dinner together. Share the stories about the day we spent.
I remember the morning rush. Almost every morning.
I remember how Ayah, Ibu, Kakak, Lanang, and me go to Payless in June. We bought 8 pairs of shoes, 1 for me, 1 for Kakak, 1 for Lanang, 4 for Ibu. 7? Yes. Ayah took a pair for himself on the last minutes we paid it because he saw everyone buy (at least) one, except Ibu haha.
I remember when Ayah drop me to school every morning when I was in high school and sometimes called number in cars which for sale just asking the price, act like we want to buy it. LOL.
I remember when Ayah got mad to me and told me "Focus!".
I remember when suddenly Ibu rode the motorcycle beside me and took me to my school when she actually must taught her students.
I remember when Ibu asked me something for my lunch.
I remember how I told her about my day, my story, and my silly thought.
I remember how Ibu told me about Eyang, her childhood, her day at school, and her feelings.
I remember how Ibu asked me about her looks when she wanted to go to some occasion.
I remember how I shyly told Kakak about the crush, who I never connected with haha.
I remember how Kakak took me at my campus then we was looking for dinner
I remember when I punched Lanang on his arm when I got mad and he automatically did revenge on me
I remember how Lanang told me about his love story and sometimes gave advice to me.

the unfinished 'remembers'

Most of all, I remember and miss how we laughed together :')
Call me spoiled, but now I found myself as a family-person. The farther I go, the closer I get.















duh vin, vin :''














Selasa, 29 Oktober 2013









"kemana kita hari ini?"








right timing. right person. continously.

Senin, 14 Oktober 2013

Help



Made this due my bad time-management lately. Bad. Very bad.
I've read about this diagram in a blog that life divide by 3 things. Sleep-School-Social thingy. You can only choose 2 of these in your 24 hours. You'll get lack of sleep if you choose school and social life. And being a little be out of social when you prefer your sleep and the school's tasks. Or, will you forget the school? You decide.

And I decide to draw this on my wall. In eye-level high. So every time I turn my day off in the bed, I'll re-think about my life today.
I draw on the wall using marker. The chocolate one, but the color turned grey.




All I know, my major, architecture, demands me to have a better time management. Deadline! Deadline! Deadline!
Oh, maybe all major in every college. Long live happiness, student all over the world!



See ya!

Jumat, 20 September 2013

A Short Getaway

Hello people! My tasks are getting horrible nowadays and during that time, I decided to make a short gateway. Yuhuuu. And luck go with me, I had a chance for documentating Kelas Inspirasi in Tangerang. Woyeaaahhhh!!!!
After tasted the experience playing with kids for a day in SD Nglahar, I was so excited with this :3

The Inspiration Day (this is how we spell that day) held on September 11st, 2013 (I know, I know this is such a late post hehe). I was in group 10 in SDN Pondok Benda 2 at Pamulang.

On that morning I was afraid because I haven't been gone  to SDN Pondok Benda 2 and my father can't accompanied me because he had a meeting in his office. So I went to SDN Pondok Benda 2 with my mother's friend. Fortunately we didn't miss any road :p

Lemme show you how nice they are~~




The waiting moms



Girls ;)



Mas Eko, works for MNC TV




Kak Tedi, a training consultant



Kak Ilham, a trainer



Mas Ulung 




Kak Tia, works for Bank Mandiri 


Pak Kafi, works for Green Building Council. I got knowledges about architecture from him :D



The aims...





was flying high :')





Happy? Absolutely!

The kids ask my facebook, twitter, handphone number, and blackberry pin also so we can still keep in touch :D

The happiest thing from here was..................get to know Cika :D






Cika is a first grader in SDN Pondok Benda 2. Preety, kind, sweet, cute, ah.... overload cuteness :3

Cika told me that she want to work at a cinema like his brother who works in cinema after I asked her what her aim is. I asked her if she love to draws or not, and she said yes :D
I directly asked her to drawing together in her sketchbook :D I saw she draws honestly, upon her imagination :D
After that, I explained her about my major, architecture. She was smiling while listen to me. And the happiest moment was.........

"Aku juga mau jadi arsitek"

("I also want to be an architect")
She said that sentences with smile. Oh my God. Help.

Gah... I just can't stop describe her :')



She was watching on my notes :')


Here we are! :D Cika bought me es mambo. Such a long time no eat ice like this :D


I sketched Cika in her skecthbook when she draw in my notes. Unfortunately it was too vague so the camera can't catch my sketch.



Cika showed my notes to her friend


Lead the class to sang "Garuda Indonesia"



I just can't get enough :') 
Feel like fully charged after back to Tangerang meet my father, mother, and my brother :D



See ya!

Kamis, 12 September 2013

World v.19

Tadaaa! I went back my home in Tangerang two days ago. During the time I were going from my campus to airport, a friend of mine told me suddenly, "You're busy with your own world". 

"Kamu sibuk sama duniamu sendiri, kok"


That sentence really made me silent for a while. At that time.
My own world.

I have just realized lately. I often make a scope for myself. Mommy said something to me after I had told her about that. She said that I always enter a circle without bring my college friends in. My daily friends, even my family. 
Literally. I found that I have started to making a little world for me since I have been entering my college days.
Many things I decided during my time live faraway from my parents. One of it was being happy. Not to search (even a) happiness. I have to make a happiness. For me. For myself. With a term, not to hurt others.

I have a big curiosity. Sometimes I told myself that if you see a pool, be drowned. Don't float. I make an effort to everything I do. Unfortunately, my interest doesn't attract my friends. So I go with my self. Drowning. Then my own world has created.



Did I make a mistake?



I think no.

But, I feel yes.

I think there's nothing wrong if I focused on everything I do. My daddy said "Focus"  to me every time a make a mistake. I'm bad in focusing on something. So I try.

Beside that, I acquainted many people with every activities I do. The most thing that makes me happy is acquainted with architect(s). I learn a lot from them. FYI, usually I'm the youngest. It was an advantage for me. They have much experience than I have.

But, I feel yes. Somewhile I thought that I'm making a space with my daily life. Making a bubble which can't be entered by others. And I really feel doubt on that.









Aduh bingung.


See ya!

Minggu, 25 Agustus 2013

Another Sharing


Once again, being part of Kelas Inspirasi batch Tangerang as a photographer! Yuhuuuuu!

Selasa, 13 Agustus 2013

Thread isn't Just at Your Laptop

Tuesday, August 13th ; 13:38

I accidentally felt from my motorcycle. Proned, woke up and bleeding at the same time.

Okay, that's not the point. The first time for being sewed on your chin. Local anesthetic doesn't make me asleep. So, I watch my uncle who is the doctor who sewed me, pulled up the thread directly in front of my face.

I felt so white.




Now, I can't open my jaw widely. Little bit hurt. And delicious dishes around me. Shit, huh?

Kamis, 01 Agustus 2013

Freeze The Moments

Photos from a toy camera, Buzz, which accompanies my journey lately. Do I need to explain why I named it Buzz? Because my dslr camera named Andy. I love Toy Story movies. Beside that, the camera will be buzzing everytime you take picture.

Mostly taken at Yogyakarta and Surabaya. These photos were from the fourth film roll. The first was broken because I haven't understand how to use yet. The second one was broken too because I was hardly revolve the film, too happy to do it hehe. And the third roll was burnt because my friend accidentally open the camera body when the film haven't been rolled yet :(

Here we go...

 Candi Prambanan, Yogyakarta




 Koinodori :D



 Flowers at Kotabaru florists :3 lovely, eh?


Vredeburg Fortress





 Kelas Inspirasi Surabaya!!! :D


 My sister, granny, and my sister's boyfriend, Mas Artha :3 









Do you feel the lovely colors? :')





See ya!