Kamar

(this gonna be a long post)



Hujan. Tadi malam si Vina begadang nugas. Kesiangan. Ditinggal sama Mami (an aunt of mine) ke kampus :( untungnya sopirnya baik hati mau ngaterin ke kampus. Seperempat jalan, sms masuk dari Anggun. Kuliahnya kosong :(

Terus sekarang Vina bingung mau ngapain. Terus inget kalo punya geekgogreen. Geek Go Green. Ya blog biasa aja sih. Biasa kerjaannya curhat. Kalo bisa ya jangan yang menye (walaupun beberapakali me-menye-kan diri di sini :( )
Then I found that Geek Go Green is a chamber. A cave. A crib. Of mine. Which people can sneak in.

Ya dibayangin aja gini. Kamar. Semua (should be) have a room. Privacy. Okelah, kita sebut aja ini kayak kotak rahasia. Kotak harta karun. Kayak macemnya Vina jaman kecil. (kamu juga dulu pernah punya kan?) Bukan bentuk fisik kotak. Tapi ini *tunjuk jidat Vina yang lebar*.
Oke, daripada disebut kepala, otak, atau bahkan jidat, kita ganti namanya aja jadi imajinasi. Dan selalu ada perasaan biar orang lain tau imajinasinya. Tapi jangan semua. Buat Vina, ini medianya.

Waktu kecil imajinasi bebas berkeliaran. Wut! Wut! Wut! Dulu anehnya (karena ngebayanginnya pas umur segini aja makanya dibilang aneh, dulu sih awesome! haha), Vina bisa bikin cerita sendiri. Semacam bikin drama. Sendirian. Di rumah. Tapi seolah olah ada banyak orang. Haha keren ya ;) kalo sekarang mau kayak gitu, udah kalah sama malu duluan haha

The bigger I grow, my imagination slowly fades away. Tapi tetep, ada banyak bayangan masa kecil ang nggak bisa lepas. Badannya si Vina aja gede, 166 cm. Tapi kadang masih merasa a kid trapped in 19 body (I still 19 though :p ). (Salah satu) Efeknya, ya gitu, kelakuan si Vina masih kayak anak kecil. Paling berasa itu tentang kecerobohan. Ini kebangetan.Si Vina juga bingung gimana cara ngatasinnya. Barang jatoh, kedudukan, keteken. Pun ampun Vin.... :'(

Terus, muncul lagi yang nggak pernah kepikiran sebelumnya. Si Vina. Valentina Kris Utami. Punya dunianya sendiri. Pernah nulis tentang dunia sendiri (presepsi tentang 'dunia sendiri' dari pemikiran Vina). Nih, tapi kalo males gausah dibaca juga gapapa.

Jadi ya, akhir-akhir ini si Vina selalu dibilangin tentang Vina dan dunianya. Vina pikir 'dunia sendiri' itu yaaa karena suka tau-tau keluar, kabur dari rutinitas dan ikut kegiatan atau acara lain. Yang bahkan orang-orangnya yang terlibat pun jauh berbeda sama keseharian.

Tapi tapi tapi, ternyata lebih dari itu. Dunia yang dimaksud itu bukan cuma dunia yang tercipta dari adanya kegiatan yang Vina ikutin. Dunia yang dimaksud itu imajinasi yang muncul di kepala Vina secara semena-mena dan gatau waktu. Imajinasi apa? Misalnya gini. lagi ngomongin tentang sepeda, tau-tau kebayang mimpi-mimpi si Vina tentang sepeda dan segala gambaran Vina dan sepeda yang pernah ada. Bayangan kayak gitu tau-tau muncul, seolah-olah ada film yang muter di kepala. Tapi yang liat ya cuma si Vina doang. Efeknya, si Vina malah senyum-senyum sendiri -____________- malah out of conversation -___-

Terima kasih buat Mas Amang yang berkali-kali bilang "Ha kamu sibuk sama duniamu sendiri kok". Sekarang si Vina sadar. Jadi.................ya emang dari dulu nggak sadar. hahaha


Sedih? Kadang. Nggak semua orang ngerti ke-anak kecil-an si Vina. Sialnya lagi, di umur segini, men. Lingkungan menuntut buat bersikap lebih dewasa. Pft. Tapi ya ada benernya. Masa iya mau gitu terus, Vin? I need to learn to live happily with maturity.
Asik? Ya asik lah! Ini tuh kayak bagian masa kecil yang masih nempel di pikiran. Karena imajinasi mainannya pikiran. Bukan perasaan.

Oke. Menulis tentang perasaan, buat si Vina itu sulit hukumnya. Karena bakal cenderung menye. Uye.
Sering muncul perasaan. I need somebody to share my imagination with. My weirdness. My cribs. My cave. My chamber. (Ini menjelang menye). More than that, si Vina juga mau mencoba keluar dari cribnya sendiri. Biar nggak kayak katak dalam tempurung. (bener kan ya peribahasanya?) Mau masuk ke kamarnya orang lain (ya kalo diijinkan. ini juga milih milih. *toyor kepala Vina*)


Imagine it is a looooong way with a door in the end. Sering kali orang-orang yang (mungkin) tepat sudah mendekat ke pintu 'kamar', tapi malah mundur ke belakang. Kebetulan? I don't think so. hahaha They decide, I nggerus :'(
Kalo sekarang, ada yang mulai dekat ke pintu, but I haven't see the decision. Open the door or turn back home (Tukan tukan tukaaaaan :'( )






Tadi malem ditelpon ayah. Ditanya, "Gimana? Logistik aman?" dan jawabannya, automatically, absolutely, "Nggaaaaaaaak :'((((" hahaha





See ya!

I remember how we got dinner together. Share the stories about the day we spent.
I remember the morning rush. Almost every morning.
I remember how Ayah, Ibu, Kakak, Lanang, and me go to Payless in June. We bought 8 pairs of shoes, 1 for me, 1 for Kakak, 1 for Lanang, 4 for Ibu. 7? Yes. Ayah took a pair for himself on the last minutes we paid it because he saw everyone buy (at least) one, except Ibu haha.
I remember when Ayah drop me to school every morning when I was in high school and sometimes called number in cars which for sale just asking the price, act like we want to buy it. LOL.
I remember when Ayah got mad to me and told me "Focus!".
I remember when suddenly Ibu rode the motorcycle beside me and took me to my school when she actually must taught her students.
I remember when Ibu asked me something for my lunch.
I remember how I told her about my day, my story, and my silly thought.
I remember how Ibu told me about Eyang, her childhood, her day at school, and her feelings.
I remember how Ibu asked me about her looks when she wanted to go to some occasion.
I remember how I shyly told Kakak about the crush, who I never connected with haha.
I remember how Kakak took me at my campus then we was looking for dinner
I remember when I punched Lanang on his arm when I got mad and he automatically did revenge on me
I remember how Lanang told me about his love story and sometimes gave advice to me.

the unfinished 'remembers'

Most of all, I remember and miss how we laughed together :')
Call me spoiled, but now I found myself as a family-person. The farther I go, the closer I get.















duh vin, vin :''

"kemana kita hari ini?"

right timing. right person. continously.

Help

Made this due my bad time-management lately. Bad. Very bad.
I've read about this diagram in a blog that life divide by 3 things. Sleep-School-Social thingy. You can only choose 2 of these in your 24 hours. You'll get lack of sleep if you choose school and social life. And being a little be out of social when you prefer your sleep and the school's tasks. Or, will you forget the school? You decide.

And I decide to draw this on my wall. In eye-level high. So every time I turn my day off in the bed, I'll re-think about my life today.
I draw on the wall using marker. The chocolate one, but the color turned grey.




All I know, my major, architecture, demands me to have a better time management. Deadline! Deadline! Deadline!
Oh, maybe all major in every college. Long live happiness, student all over the world!


See ya!

A Short Getaway

Hello people! My tasks are getting horrible nowadays and during that time, I decided to make a short gateway. Yuhuuu. And luck go with me, I had a chance for documentating Kelas Inspirasi in Tangerang. Woyeaaahhhh!!!!
After tasted the experience playing with kids for a day in SD Nglahar, I was so excited with this :3

The Inspiration Day (this is how we spell that day) held on September 11st, 2013 (I know, I know this is such a late post hehe). I was in group 10 in SDN Pondok Benda 2 at Pamulang.
On that morning I was afraid because I haven't been gone  to SDN Pondok Benda 2 and my father can't accompanied me because he had a meeting in his office. So I went to SDN Pondok Benda 2 with my mother's friend. Fortunately we didn't miss any road :p

Lemme show you how nice they are~~

The waiting moms

Girls ;)

Mas Eko, works for MNC TV

Kak Tedi, a training consultant

Kak Ilham, a trainer

Mas Ulung 

Kak Tia, works for Bank Mandiri 

Pak Kafi, works for Green Building Council. I got knowledges about architecture from him :D

The aims...

was flying high :')

Happy? Absolutely!
The kids ask my facebook, twitter, handphone number, and blackberry pin also so we can still keep in touch :D

The happiest thing from here was..................get to know Cika :D

Cika is a first grader in SDN Pondok Benda 2. Preety, kind, sweet, cute, ah.... overload cuteness :3
Cika told me that she want to work at a cinema like his brother who works in cinema after I asked her what her aim is. I asked her if she love to draws or not, and she said yes :D
I directly asked her to drawing together in her sketchbook :D I saw she draws honestly, upon her imagination :D
After that, I explained her about my major, architecture. She was smiling while listen to me. And the happiest moment was.........

"Aku juga mau jadi arsitek"
("I also want to be an architect")
She said that sentences with smile. Oh my God. Help.

Gah... I just can't stop describe her :')

She was watching on my notes :')

Here we are! :D Cika bought me es mambo. Such a long time no eat ice like this :D

I sketched Cika in her skecthbook when she draw in my notes. Unfortunately it was too vague so the camera can't catch my sketch.

Cika showed my notes to her friend

Lead the class to sang "Garuda Indonesia"

I just can't get enough :') 
Feel like fully charged after back to Tangerang meet my father, mother, and my brother :D



See ya!

World v.19

Tadaaa! I went back my home in Tangerang two days ago. During the time I were going from my campus to airport, a friend of mine told me suddenly, "You're busy with your own world". 

"Kamu sibuk sama duniamu sendiri, kok"

That sentence really made me silent for a while. At that time.

My own world.

I have just realized lately. I often make a scope for myself. Mommy said something to me after I had told her about that. She said that I always enter a circle without bring my college friends in. My daily friends, even my family. 

Literally. I found that I have started to making a little world for me since I have been entering my college days.

Many things I decided during my time live faraway from my parents. One of it was being happy. Not to search (even a) happiness. I have to make a happiness. For me. For myself. With a term, not to hurt others.

I have a big curiosity. Sometimes I told myself that if you see a pool, be drowned. Don't float. I make an effort to everything I do. Unfortunately, my interest doesn't attract my friends. So I go with my self. Drowning. Then my own world has created.


Did I make a mistake?


I think no.
But, I feel yes.

I think there's nothing wrong if I focused on everything I do. My daddy said "Focus"  to me every time a make a mistake. I'm bad in focusing on something. So I try.
Beside that, I acquainted many people with every activities I do. The most thing that makes me happy is acquainted with architect(s). I learn a lot from them. FYI, usually I'm the youngest. It was an advantage for me. They have much experience than I have.

But, I feel yes. Somewhile I thought that I'm making a space with my daily life. Making a bubble which can't be entered by others. And I really feel doubt on that.








Aduh bingung.

See ya!

Another Sharing

Once again, being part of Kelas Inspirasi batch Tangerang as a photographer! Yuhuuuuu!