Hohoho sudah tanggal 14 bulan Februari lagi. No no no, I’m not gonna share something like my fear of getting older. I just wanna do some flashback as a message for me.
Being 25 is awesome, Vina. You did many things which was your dream. The biggest forte was being a children book illustrator. You can’t thank God enough for the opportunities. That was fucking crazy. You’ve tried so many things like learnt Korean language, getting serious on business, dearly ROPA, making soap, watched movies alone, and mingle with your solitude.
As time passes by, you find that home is the sanctuary. You enjoyed yourself alone. You could dive on your mind although you slept most of the time. Lol.
Sometimes life felt so cruel and unfair. The fear of living separated with people you love and the fact you can’t control everything as you want. The fear of concept of money, what to do, what to spend until you find that it’s easier for you to give money to other than spent it alone. Nevertheless, I can say you did great on savings (though not everything goes by as you’ve planned, shit happen). The savings may not bought you a home neither an apartment like what you draw almost everyday but it was a good amount for safety net.
You afford yourself an iPad which you use to write this post right now. You were really proud of yourself for finally spend big amount of money for yourself, with no guilt because you know this fella gonna make you some bucks. You also did an vaccination, HPV, which cost a million for each injection. The last is on May. Don’t forget.
Went to Singapore. Finally you got stamps on your passport since the last time you went to Vietnam. Your life was fine huh? Yes. I can tell.
Being a good friend wasn’t easy. You expected something than you felt missing out, you felt left easily. But you can handle it. I’m proud of you.
Being a lover was a similar game. Sometimes you felt taken for granted but your mind fuck every time you rethink in a logical perspective. Still, you weren’t an expert in love.
You try another chance for Ibu, but you know not to set a high expectation since what I’ve planned for Ayah didn’t went well. It’s okay Vina. You’re no God.
Ah I really sorry but I need to sleep. Love yourself, Na. The best is yet to come.
I love my self. Lol.
Ah. You finally have the guts to color your hair to green, it may still in half but maybe you can do it fully. You’re cool!
See ya!
